The Drama Starts Here

I feel it happens in every group.  Families.  Work places.  And with tight groups of friends.  I’ve definitely had enough trouble with the first two groups but it’s this last one that bothers me the most.  As a rule I try to live my life with the least amount of drama as I can.  Granted I like causing trouble and on a regular basis “solemnly swear that I am up to no good” but these are events are isolated to specific nights or places.  This drama crap of “he said” and “she said” puts me on an aggressive edge like nothing else can.  I have to deal with some crap on the regular that what I don’t want from the family I chose is to deal with more gossip.

It’s followed me for some time now.  It must go hand in hand with that fact that I think I release some pheromone that makes people want to take care of me.  Some big, doe-eyed, helpless feeling I release.  I don’t know how people get that urge and yet somehow think that I’m some kind of whore. . . anyway.  Even back in college I felt people needed to meddle in my affairs for my own good.  Would try to help by talking to other people on my behalf, about things I didn’t care about, didn’t know about, or could very well take care of myself.  Please, if I want someone to know how I feel about them, I’ll tell them.  I really don’t need other people to take others aside and talk to them for me.  I have quite the command over this language and am familiar with enough of others that I can quite competently take care of that myself.  So ya, people feel the need to gossip about me, to me, and meddle in my personal affairs.  Even if its really just my business, and more importantly they probably don’t know how I really feel about the person/situation.  Trust me not many if any rarely do.

With that said, I am a far too trusting person.  So, if someone comes to me with a “s/he said” I most likely will believe them and will go to that person trying to stop the situation or clear things up.  I hold grudges for sure, but I also like to solve problems.  But if its not true, well that causes trouble too.  That’s really why I hate busy bodies and people who feel they need to meddle in my affairs.  Trust me I probably don’t need your help and unless I have asked you to talk to someone don’t want it. 

I’ve rolled my eyes too much today and I haven’t even gotten to rehearsal.  Kyrie eleison.